What is a tragedy for you?

Is it when you forget to pay your bills on time? Is it when your dog eats your favourite shoe? Is it when you are 2 mins late for the last train? Is it when you lose your job? Or maybe when you break up with your bf/gf? All these things could be considered tragedies. Everything depends on the perspective and your personal attitude. To me, this day today is a tragedy. Polish President dies in a plane crash. Together with his wife and scores of other senior Polish figures. Let's be honest, I'm not interested in politics. I'm not here, in Italy, I wasn't back there in Poland. But it doesn't matter today.

I just finished my morning class and went out with Artù for a walk in Piazza Santa Lucia when I received a text message from my Mum informing me about the tragedy. Since that moment I have been crying and grieving continously when listening to the Polish radio on the Internet in seek for news and more information... Everyone died. "Crème de la crème" as the French would say. All the most important politicians, historians, representatives of Poland. I realised it cannot be fully understood by someone who is not Polish. My bf is trying to convince me that "things like that happen...", that it could be an opportunity for the country, than one should be sad but should aslo be able to look at this objectively. Well, I can't. At least not today. Maybe my reaction is exaggerated because I cannot be there? Or maybe I'm simply oversensitive... I called my Mum who started to cry together with me and I must say it was very comforting... Unfortunately my Dad wasn't home but after a few mins he called me on my mobile and tried to console me. This was very touching.

Only once have I felt the way I'm feeling now and it was when the Pope died, exactly 5 years ago. But I was in Poland and it was a bit easier. All the cars were "decorated" with a piece of black material/clothing attached to the radio aerial. I did that too.These tragedies change and unite people. Even if for a brief moment but suddenly you see they become kinder to each other, less aggressive, suddenly you don't hear about rapes, murderers or burglaries on radio or TV, people try to help each other, they become nicer. What's more I don't care about politics. Polish politics sucks, it's famous for outrageous scandals, continous quarrels and disorder and (of course) corruption. But it doesn't matter today. I feel as if sth has finished and my country will never be the same. Don't pity me. Just let me be sad. I know it'll pass.